my worst critic

I'm my own worst critic. Even as i type this i'm thinking to myself  " who cares what you have to say " " no on wants to read this" "you're not important " even though that might be, right now i am choosing to block out the negative thoughts and just write . i have so much in my head on a daily using this blog as a journal just seems right.

when it finally clicks in ya head that u can do better .. i mean when u finally get that epiphany ... when you have a v8 moment. the moment when u decide ya current situation is not final destination . thats the moment when all hell will break loose. whether its wit your job your relationship or just the motion to better yourself, trouble will come out the wood works to find you and discourage you. lies will be told on you, your house hold will be turned upside down. it might seem your spouse and/ or your children will have completely lost their mind . bills and charges will come out of thin air .. ya money will continue to get shorter. ya friends and family might even turn their back on you. you will feel like giving up you will feel like u need an easy way out . you will feel completely alone. misunderstood, maybe even an outcast . that is the moment the very moment i believe you keep pushing .. you push through the lies the deceit the ill wills and the nasty grills that will come your way .. you break down if u have to and ask God for strength for the power to pull through it. you ask him for protection and you ask for a sane mind . you thank him for who he is and you thank him for how he has kept you through it all ... and after thats all said and done when you have said amen. you get up and dry your eyes you take a deep breath you look in the mirror and you tell yourself " I got this " you speak it into existence .. you tell yaself until you believe it yourself .. every day !! say it when you wake up say it when u brush your teeth eating breakfast walking into your job, getting gas ..driving down the interstate .. fixing dinner getting ready for bed . you tell yourself you got this you believe it with all of your heart then you hold your head high chest out shoulders back and you push your way into your break through !

That is something i wrote to myself last year around this time. it has helped me believe in myself and though not 100% confident . i can say i am 20 times more confident then i was last year . i have some goals i have set for myself and 2017 seems like the right time to put these goals into play . so i invite you, whoever might be, to come with me. laugh with me, cry with me , enjoy with me this journey as i explore these bigger dreams!